Need a second to breathe.

Yes... I'm afraid.


There might have been a time.
When everything i did was a mistake.
Oh once upon a time.
My heart was in the right place.

Now...
Here we are.
So, don't give up on me.
Please, don't give up on me.....

Just don't give up.
I'm working on me.
It messed me up.
Bad memories.

Need a second to breathe.
One more second to breathe....


Yea... It's plain to see.
That I try to beautiful...
So hard to be beautiful.


Yeah, there might have been a time.
When I would let you slip away.
I wouldn't even try.
All I could do was blame me.


But we saved each others lives.
Open your eyes and see.

So it begins again.

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do.

I came along,
I wrote a song for you,
And all the things you do,
And it was called "Yellow."
So then I took my turn,
Oh what a thing to have done,
And it was all "Yellow."

Your skin..
Oh, your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
You know, you know I love you so,
You know I love you so.

I swam across,
I jumped across for you,
Oh what a thing to do.
I drew a line,
I drew a line for you,
Oh what a thing to do,
And it was all "Yellow."

It's true, look how they shine for you.
Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do.

We were pure "Yellow."

Trying to make sense of it all. I am putting my words away.

Old memories flash before my eyes..The last time this had happened to me... i stopped writing... from poems, to songs, stories, everything.The fact that this time, i really put my whole heart out there. Its difficult to comprehend, to undertstand. Now... Im Trying to make sense of it all. Im trying to accept i am not good enough, i let my guard down and i trusted someone. Now that its all gone, i want to work on myself and try not to give up on it. At this point, all i have are my words. But im afraid those will not be written any longer. Until i can write again, i hope i dont continue to hurt myself like this. Because i know im a strong person. I thought all my pain was gone. I was wrong. I am also accepting the fact that i lost my only chance of finding happiness in another. I need to be content with the fact that i may just be alone for the rest of my life. I touched real love and warmth once, i am a fool if i think that will happen more then once in a life time. Though its all done, i will keep that tiny bit of hope tucked in somewhere. My head is not on straight at this point... the sense of all my words are fading... which is yet another sign, that I am putting my words away and Closing my heart.
i see you...
but you dont want to see me...

Things you said.

It felt like springtime on this February morning. I'm still recalling things you said to make me feel alright, I carried them with me today. Though I'm far away, I'll whisper your name into the sky, And I will make up happy. Heavy hearted, Till you call my name.  Though it's not clear to me, Every season has its change. And I will see youWhen the sun comes out again.